The period of advent always seems to catch me unawares. In fact it's become really bad over the last few years. I am not sure whether it's got something to do with age or whether it's just the over emphases on material splendour the world seems to place on the time of advent. I make no bones about the fact that I detest the commercialization of Christmas. But that is just me.
There is however another little factor that comes into play.
The question is often posed. What comes first, Chirstmas or New Year. I have often tried to catch my nieces and nephews with this little trick. Most times I lose.
Yet those few days after Christmas is often the most difficult for me. It's like being stuck in the doldrums with no wind and very little direction. It's the time when the god Janus comes out and forces me to look back and look forward at the same time. And honestly speaking the last couple of times I did that, both the past and the future looked equilly bleak. But I am an eternal optimist. I often need to force myself to reflect deeply. Where I was, where I am and where I need/want to be.
Twenty fourteen has not been a good year. The harvest has not produced the finest vintage and it will certainly not go down in history as been one of the finest crops. In a matter of days it will end with me not working for a boss. That "security" of getting paid at the end of the month will be gone.The only option is now me to create my own security. I now have to do it for myself and I must honest, I am as scared as hell. I have never been here before.
I do not make resolutions. I find it's like making a promise to yourself and breaking it a day, a week or a month down the line. However the one thing I do know is that my life is not in my hands. There is a greater Being that holds control over the path ahead for me.
So 2015 will be a new beginning for me. Yet the greatest gift I have is this fact. I am healthy. I have resources, albeit somewhat limited. I am able to use my hands. I breathe. I have family that cares. I have friends that inspire and uplift me. I am not alone. And then, most of all, I have GOD on my side. All said and done, I am pretty much ok.
There are those that have very little, least of all hope. Let us think of them this Christmas